Whether you consider yourself to be a healer or holder of the Light, Lightworkers need to live in the awareness of what is going on in, and around, their field of influence. Although our intention is hold the Light and to project it, it is very important to be aware of when we are in the light and when dark forces are impacting our field. I define dark forces as those forces that resonate at low levels and project fear, anxiety, and dense discordant energy to cloud or block us from achieving our Divine purpose. Many people on this path do not want to discuss this darker side or to even acknowledge that it exists. Ignorance is not a form of protection. It just allows you to be a victim.

What I have found is that the dark energy comes in very subtle ways. Everything can be going along very well and then all of a sudden, you are stuck in anger or frustration. It can seem as if you are having a hard time getting anything done. You might also feel blocked energy in your head feeling confused, experience headaches as well as unexplained body aches or pains that have no basis in our physical structure. As it gets worse, you could begin to feel lethargic and experience fear and doubt about your life's work.

Maybe you feel this is normal and everyone goes through these types of issues or dynamics. As we journey about our days work, we are pulled in many directions and influenced by the negativity around us. Maintaining our awareness of our truth -holders of the Light - is so important when engaged in stress and chaotic filled energy dynamics. If we do not hold onto our awareness of our Light, gradually our Light begins to diminish as we are sucked into the dramas around us, leaving us vulnerable to the lower vibrational energies of those dark energies that would like to take us off our path and cloak our Light.

Recognize the negative feelings or blocks that stay with you for more than a few minutes or hours. Take your awareness into your thoughts and emotions and begin to check into what is going on. It is not a Lightworker's nature to be stuck in these harsh emotions. Ask yourself, "Where did this come from?" Although we do go through periods of stress dealing with heavy workloads, we normally are able to handle whatever comes up in the normal course of our work and to hold our I AM Presence. Another way to raise our awareness is move your attention out into your energy field. Do you feel anything dark or heavy in your field or in the room with you? These energies can sometimes feel as if they are stuck on your energy field, stifling energy from flowing in and out. It can also give you the feeling as if you are energetically being smothered. All these dynamics can make you feel anxious, depressed or panicky. This is not meant to scare you. It is meant to open you to being more aware of what is going on and empower you to use your Light to ward off negative energies.

The key is to be able to recognize the dynamic when we are having these negative thoughts and emotions. To be aware that this is not our truth and to use our awareness to focus our mind and heart back into the frequency of light.

When I find myself being challenged by the darker forces, and I am acting without awareness, after a few days I am miserable and things seem to be spiraling downhill. I begin to look deeply at what is going on around me. I then sort out whether this is coming from within me - if I am struggling to release an old belief or behavior - or is this being projected from a dark energy. My learning in this process has been to spend less time in the challenges and heaviness and to recognize the dynamic sooner by being aware of what is going on in my thought, emotional, and energetic world on a continuous basis. I am normally very upbeat and positive holding for the highest for all. So when I catch myself going into thoughts and emotions that do not support an ascension consciousness, I need to send out my awareness to see what is going on in my physical and energetic space around me.

The dark energies can work on a very subtle level, stirring up the areas you have not healed. These energies can also grow stronger around you, if you are not aware and align yourself back into the higher realms of Light. Many people want to fight the darkness. I find that if you fight it, you give it power because you have lowered your vibration even more to assume a fighting consciousness. The most loving and empowering thing that you can do for yourself is to remember your connection to the I AM Source within us. To make a conscious decision, no matter how we are feeling, to align back to the Source/Higher Self/God. Breath in light and activate the violet flame within your physical, emotional, mental, and etheric bodies. Surround yourself with Light and to lift up your mind and emotion into the realms of eternal joy and wisdom so that these Light vibrations support and protect.

Dark energies can also be very evident and in your face at times. All of a sudden you feel overwhelmed or a heaviness overcoming you. We can be in places that we would never consider "dark" places and give our awareness a vacation. A friend of mine vacationing in Rome visited the Vatican and suffered a severe attack of dark energy. It nearly ruined her trip.

When I find that I am blatantly being attacked, I will stop what I am doing and begin aligning my beingness in the Light (I visualize this). After feeling the alignment, I say the Lord's Prayer slowly, line by line and feel myself resonating with the prayer energy. I have used this on several occasions and immediately the attack energy stops. Other times I may chant out loud or silently until the Light encompasses my whole field. Darkness cannot overcome the Light. I bring my awareness and beingness back into my Truth of my I AM Presence Light. You can do this for yourself anytime, by chanting, praying, centering in love, or visualizing something that realigns you with the Light.

The best way to keep out the dark forces is to maintain our awareness of what is going on within and around us and to consciously align ourselves in the higher realms of Light living in our I AM frequency. Darkness cannot exist in the Light of Truth and Love.

Well, I don't need to describe to you the feelings you are having. You are not alone. The depression, the old esteem issues, and the downright fear are all there along with insights and huge changes.

First of all, most of you are not feeling your own feelings. Ok, most of the feelings are related to something you've felt before, but these old feelings are simply being triggered by your empathy with current events and with others who are in devastating conditions. With earthquakes and fires and other natural disasters, we are feeling the destructive energy of earth, fire, air, and water. Our connections to the heavens and to the deep core of the planet are stretched to their limits creating great discomfort.

So, if this is not yours alone, what can you do? Remember that you are working, like a MASH unit, on the astral to help victims of these disasters and you need to recuperate during down times and get extra rest whenever possible.

Strengthen your connection with the heavens and with the deep core off earth. You might not feel it at first, but keep at it as a lifeline to create a shamanic matrix--a place to come from when you are doing the larger healing work of this time. Call in your guides or a guardian spirit/angel/power animal to help you with the work.

Because we need to work in the shamanic realms, it is necessary to work on the energy of the universe and the planet even if you have no formal training. Always add that you are working for the good of all concerned and for the highest outcome. After connecting with the heavens and with the earth core, visualizing a column of light that is strong and full of gold coming from the core to the heavens through your center.

A slightly elongated pyramid shape crystal forms in the heaven--the base expands and can have more than 4 sides and all come to a point in the heavens. The energy now being received by this sacred geometric form surrounds your body and ends in a slightly smaller elongated pyramid (proactive male side) forms going into the earth. This is the basic four sided Vogel shape crystal form.

You are in the middle of this large Vogel Sacred Geometric Shamanic Healing energy field. As the energy comes in through the receptive side, it cleanses you and energizes you and sends everything (new and old energy) to the core of the earth to be transmuted into more gold.

The crystal structure now draws in the sacred healing energy from the universe that is need to heal you and the planet. It brings in other sacred geometric structures to assist with the work. Your central core is vibrating with gold and you are assisting in anchoring the new healing energy into the earth and into the astral structure around you.

Finally, you reverse the crystal so the feminine (larger) side is in the earth and the more elongated smaller point is in the heaven and gold radiates out from the bottom point in 360 degrees and the entire earth is bathed in gold light. Then, the entire universe is bathed in gold light.

After spending some time enjoying the unity and the strength of the gold light, let it condense in your central column, inhaling the fresh feeling of aliveness that it gives you and letting go of the past, of the suffering, of all that has been. You can also place some of this condensed energy in a special vial that can be visualized and used to recharge you at a moments notice. Thank your helpers and return to this realm.

Remember you are part of a huge healing that is going on. Stay focused on letting go of the personal and empowering a new light.

Amaterasu Omikami is considered to be a gentle harmonizing presence and symbol of the myriads of kami. She blesses everybody indiscriminately with serene light. One can say that Japan is one of the few countries in the world where modernization and great economic growth have been achieved while the traditional deities, with Amaterasu Omikami as spiritual center remain important in people's lives.

But Amaterasu Omikami does not have the character of the absolute God of Christianity. She is described as a symbol for the myriads of kami, and as the one who brought great harmony to heaven and earth. Our ancestors lived with awe and respect towards the kami. Shinto, the indigenous religion of Japan, is based on these concepts of kami. The ancient Japanese believed in numerous kami, their multitude is expressed by the number eight million.

The basis of Shinto faith is the consciousness that nature and human beings are united firmly through the kami. This consciousness is expressed in the ritual forms of worshiping the kami. Among the many Shinto sanctuaries in Japan, Ise Jingu is the supreme and offers spiritual support for the Japanese in times of confusion. The kami of Ise Jingu is Amaterasu Omikmai, the supreme deity, who is not only the ancestor of the Imperial Family, but also the kami that gave rice to the people, as described in Japanese mythology.

The sacred blend of Lemongrass, Rosewood, Rosemary Eucalyptus, Goldenrod & Jasmine will bring joy; it will anchor you and will help stay in trust because even after a period of harsh times, the light and the sun always come back. It will help you breathe and take in the sun.

Application: Put 1 or 2 drops on the hands, rub your them together and feel the heat, clap them twice and take this energy to your heart to feel the connection with the universal light.

As I contemplated what to write for this newsletter the energy that is the consciousness of Kryon came in and showed me the very familiar image of the ripples on the still pond when a stone is thrown into it. The pattern is of perfectly symmetrical concentric circles. For those of you who are familiar with the Wesak meditation as given by Dwal Khul through Alice Bailey, the vision in the Wesak Valley of the Himalayas, where all the devotees have gathered, is that prior to the manifestation of the Maitreya Buddha, the "Great Ones", or Ascended Masters former three concentric circles. This archetype of concentric circles is a profound one. It is the model that demonstrates how everything that we put in the field of consciousness infinitely ripples out. It is the exactly the pattern of how the energy of Wesak touches the whole of humanity. The Christ Love of the Buddha Meitreya, through the collective consciousness of the Ascended Masters and then through all the light workers on the earth, ripples out infinitely. As it scintillates our consciousness it flows through us like ripples and extends ever outwards.

There is also another aspect of this model which is particular to us in 3-D. If we were the stone hitting the still water of the pond, when we are at the level of the water we can only see the first ripple. It is only when we rise above the level of the water that we can perceive the extending circles of the ripples. The higher we rise up the further we can see. This is an important concept when we try to understand what is happening on the earth at the moment. From the perspective that we get through the television news it would seem that there are many negative things happening. War, food shortages, unstable monetary system etc, but there is always the bigger picture. This is the divine archetypes as represented by the ripples on a pond. Simply accepting that there is a bigger picture, and that everything is in Divine order because that's what it has to be, the fact that we cannot see the outer reaches of the ripples does not mean that they are not there. When we find ourselves in situations where we are experiencing negative things it can be difficult to rise higher and see the bigger picture. This being so, we have simply got to know, in spite of not understanding, that the bigger picture is indeed there. It is this wisdom that is the essence of trust. It is also this wisdom that helps us to be in acceptance of everything that is happening, without judgement. The fact that we can't see the bigger picture does not mean that it isn't there; indeed it has to be there.

This is a very comforting concept both for the world at large and for our own personal experiences. God, The Divine, The Creative Principle, whatever terms we want to use, is the sole creator of everything and therefore everything has to be in divine order. Unlike your insurance contract or mortgage policy there are no exceptions, there is no Small Print in Divine Law.

The archetype of the ripples on the pond helps us to be in Unconditional Love for everything, constantly reassuring the human mind that perhaps we don't understand, but there is a bigger picture, there is nothing but the Divine. So you, all the world leaders, all the terrorists, all the financial institutions etc have never done anything "wrong". A little NLP trick might come in useful here. If this last statement is a challenge to your conscious mind then I suggest that you have a word with it (your conscious mind) and say "I really accept that you do not understand how this can be true.......... but what would it be like if it was true?" Just feel the energy that comes in with this acceptance that everything is within divine law and in divine balance. That is the space of Unconditional Love, which is the energy of Heaven on Earth, which is the promise of Shamballa.